you don't deserve me

you've broken a heart you've never held,
you've taken back everything we ever had.

you don't talk to me anymore,
when you promised you would.

i loved you. i loved you.
i love you. _iloveyou.

you held me so close,
so far,
so in the middle that i never knew when you were real.

when you were there, being the one i knew,
not the other, not the one that isn't you.

your hugs, your voice, your kiss,
meant, means, so much to me.

i want to hate you.
i wanted to hate you.

i still cry sometimes at night over you.
it hurts, pulling my tight.

you were my first true love,
my first partner,
my third kiss,
my happiness.